Feelings so far....Day 4 of Quarantine

Good Morning! This week has been pretty rough. Dealing with the overwhelming suffocating feeling of being stuck in my house has been tough. Throw in trying to put together a digital platform for my students adds on another layer of stress. I might have cried once this week. My personality does not lend it self to isolation very well. I want to be social. I want to be around people. I want to explore. I want to be out and about. If you've ever heard about enneagrams well I am a 7 and if you read about 7's they don't like boredom and they also don't like being tied down. I am trying to find ways to cope with this feeling of being trapped inside. My kids seem to be doing pretty well. They have a love/hate relationship with each other so when they are getting along its great but when they aren't, its like Apocalypse 2.0 over here. Right now I am grateful that we have this piece of land they can explore versus our tiny non existent backyard we used to have. I do wish we had a pool at this time but oh well! I have tried to set up a lenient schedule that we have been following and the kids enjoy the structure. Abby likes to hold me to the schedule. We have been trying to get some work in but it can be difficult with your own kids. I can teach other peoples kids all day but when it comes to my own, that's hard! It will be nice next week when my school has their online platform set up so they can just go through those activities. I am also trying to keep up with Abby's dance and that is hard! These virtual classes just aren't as engaging as the real deal. I have faith that we will find some consistency in our schedule as the weeks progress. I am scared and worried about what will happen in the coming weeks. More cases are being confirmed and it doesn't seem like there is an end in sight. I am nervous about someone I know getting the virus. It is just so unpredictable in terms of how it will affect everyone. I really worry about Weston. He has always had nasty upper respiratory issues when he is sick so if he were to get it, I would be a ball of anxiety. I try not to think about that kind of stuff but I am human and I am using this platform to spill my thoughts/worries/ideas. Now it is time for school work so I will see you later! :) -Just a mom trying to keep her shit together!